Me under the influence

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That’s me under the influence
That was me not myself nor I
Who I was it depends
Who you ask and how often you try

There are things that had to get out
There are memories I rather didn’t have
Constant noise constantly loud
Constantly numb on my behalf

You didn’t deserve that you all didn’t
I should’ve been better be better!
I didn’t take any hint
I couldn’t have felt deader